I don' know what to feel right now.

Should I be happy or sad?
Selfless or selfish?
Swallow the hurt or Voice out the hurt?
Make the most of time left or Distance myself?
Accept things or Change things?
Be strong or Falter on my feet?
Stay or Move on?

In all this confusion, one thing I feel is certain.
I feel so alone.
I am alone.

I thought being honest would set me free...
But then I was wrong once more...

For once in my life,
I am losing hope.

The emptiness poisons me everyday.
And in 19 years of searching I have found no cure...