I've been offered to go to Beijing for a month for the China Business Tour... and yes there may be a possibility tht I could go given that I persuade my parents more but somehow I'm asking myself whether I really want to do that right now...

It could be another cool adventure, I know... but butterflies in my tummy tells me it could also go the other way. If I go, I'd be spending1 week as well in Hong Kong, and you may think I'd jump ship just to take that opportunity right (if youve been following my blog). But right now, I think that is what scares me the most about going to this trip... the going back to Hong Kong... because I feel as if things have changed there, people have changed... and though I try to let go and move on... it hurts a lot...

I don't know what will happen this summer. I don't know if I will be okay.