I just finished watching the first season of One Tree Hill on dvd. Call me sappy but why can I relate so much to the issues found there especially revolving around the Dan-Karen-Nathan and Luke thing? haha it's probably cause of same situations I think.
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I'm not yet used to this "new" me. I feel that 4 months in HK just made me grow up so fast that at times I can't keep up with it and I'm still adjusting to the changes. Told Gar the other day that right now I feel so afraid to be happy... I guess at present everything is going smoothly and I'm not worring about anything. Can't help but feel like its another calm before the storm which always has been the circumstance in my life when things are doing fine.
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Right now I consider myself to be alone, or is it that I'm choosing to be alone or is it because I'm independent now? I don't know.. this is what I said is confusing me. I used to feel so close to people before and now it isn't that way so much. It gives me less problems, worries and definitely less hurt. I just hope I'm not stopping myself from putting who I am out there because of fear of being hurt
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I was fixing files on my laptop and came across chat logs from 2003 with Lao. Wish Lao was here. Somehow I feel things would seem much more stable. I know your busy dude. Good luck with finals.
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I want to call Queens but it's way too early in NY now. Hopefully she'll be awake later. Miss her a lot.
