Right now everything is all right with me. It's all doing good. It is weird though because I am not used to this feeling – a feeling of being happy and carefree? I am not used to the new me also who just doesn't get hurt so easily. I sometimes ask myself if it's caring less or simply just how things should be. But I guess, I shouldn't think that much huh? To sum things up now, I guess I'm scared of being happy because I've never really been so happy I guess. Even Hong Kong would be quite doubtful with recent events tainting that experience a bit right? I don't know how to handle happiness and I'm scared because happiness for me is usually just the calm before a storm which gets bigger and bigger and bigger.

As always despite all these things I am thankful to have you around. I just figured out that on my birthday this year you'd be in HK and it would just be crappy celebrating without you. I never told you this but I was disappointed when you couldn't make it to Bataan because I wanted to tell you some things in person, ever since I came back really. But things have their own time and their own place and maybe things need not be said. Maybe just a thank you would suffice and it'd contain all the gratitude, appreciation, happiness I've been meaning… and even if I don't say it always, it's always there and it's just an awesome thing brought about by an awesome friend.