I always feel I can't deliver the things people want and expect of me
like everything I do is not enough...
But I have always given everything
and it hurts to know that often times, for me, my everything still falls short.

I feel that they are always looking for something else
or that there is always something better for them than me
Thus, I lose faith in people...

Moreover, I lose faith in me.

(*a year ago, for once, this feeling vanished and I miss those times... so much...)