A friend told me "Maybe the people in your life just come when you need them the most... and they leave once they help you get by..."
and deep in my mind I replied, "why can't those people who matter most to me stay? because nowadays I feel that everyone who was able to make me smile has left... and you who are here now I am afraid will drift off soon too..."
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The past week was tough and today probably was the culmination of all those feelings... that I just wanted to turn to someone and cry... turn to someone who I know after all those tears have been shed will make me feel so much better. But when I looked around, I got all the more depressed... because I couldn't find anyone who can make me real happy... because the people who did have left, and the person who does I'm so scared will leave too...
Why do people enter my life and turn it to great, then eventually leave? Can't someone, anyone, just stay for good?
