I miss joking around. I miss the strikes = beers. I miss pairing up in poker or mah jong... and singing emo songs in the car with our fave light rock radio station in tune...

I miss you dragging me to battle it out at mario kart, and the way you gloat when you beat me at it... and how you still seem to enjoy when I beat you at air hockey...

More than all that, I miss making you happy... I just want to see you laugh again. I just want to cheer you up once more. I just want to know that somehow I make things easier...

I guess lately you use the word "ahya" less and less... and maybe that is because I haven't really been one to you the past month... maybe I deserve all this worry, guilt and hurt... for being a sucky brother... :`(