To answer Wondering Part I:
It's not that I didn't want to go or couldn't go, I just didn't want to put any effort anymore... because I know I'd get hurt... and I don't know what I mean to you...

But for all it's worth, I appreciate the effort you put in wanting to see me... well I did ask out as well, so I guess we both did what we can... it's just that prolly things we're possible before because I didn't mind going out of my way for you...

So now I guess things come down to convenience, to availability, to when we're free... I'm not putting any effort anymore. I'm not going to find happiness, just simply knowing that you're happy... I guess it's time you step up the plate and change things. The way you just placed things aside, and placed my feelings aside for how many months knowing you could have done something about it, I'll never forget that. Thinking like nothing ever happened and letting time take its course won't change all that.

You mean a lot to me, but I won't let you take any part of me anymore.