In the past few months I have learned about forgiveness, regret and acceptance.  It was not easy and I am still learning more about them today.  Yet, I am still thankful for life and all its intricacies. It hurts but it teaches me what is right.

To Laoers.

I just want to say thank you dude.  How things are is a testament to the strength of our friendship. Though it did take time for things to be okay, the important thing is that we're good. I wrote this almost three years ago and I want you to know that I still mean each word written down there.

To Shotz.

Always remember that I only want the best for you, and that I want you to be happy.  I don't know what will happen next, if things will really be good.  It's just that I really don't want to see you sad.  It seems like each time I tried, you just felt bad.  That is why maybe I am not trying anymore.  Not because I don't want to, but because it doesn't do any good.  I hope things will be good as you say, but that's not up to me anymore, it's up to you.

To A.

I don't know if you can read this but I want to say sorry.  There are a lot of things I regret, and you deserve a lot more than the effort I showed before.  You were right.  I was selfish too.  I just really hope you don't think I gave up on us, because I never did.  I just didn't want to hurt you anymore than I already have.  I am still here though, and I want to make things right.  I don't know if I ever can, or if I will ever get another chance.  But if it is for the best, how things are, then I will learn to accept them.