Ver woke me up at around one in the afternoon. I was getting picked up by him since he was around the Binondo area. We caught up at his place and then met up with Manny, Laoers, Mat, Nica and Steph for a Korean dinner at Ye Dang. Food was yummy and so were the drinks afterwards at Side Bar. I almost passed out. Given my poor performance at Side Bar, I don't know how I'll survive my party this coming Saturday.

Despite the hangover from the night before, everyone managed to wake up to visit Gar at Manila Memorial. It was hot, and Mat's car didn't have tint so Manny, Ver and I were like chimichangas at the back seat! I say chimichanga since we had Ristra's for lunch. I couldn't finish the burrito no matter the effort - and I am still stuffed until now. The guys played Magic afterwards while I slept the afternoon away in Manny's comfy couch.

At night, I caught up with mom and aunt to catch Michael Jackson's This Is It. I am impressed. Michael Jackson is really an awesome performer.. but aside from that the movie made me think about stuff...

Apart from Michael's talent and dedication to his craft, what amazed me about this man is his capacity to touch people's lives. His music and his person, despite the issues that he faced, continues to inspire. I think everyone, in their most inner-self aspires to have this effect - to be an agent of change to others, to matter, to leave a legacy. Michael Jackson has obviously done this, and I felt very small watching this marvel on the silver screen.

I look back at the past twenty-three years and wonder how have I changed the lives of people? And somehow, a great sadness enveloped me upon this reflection because I remembered two people I value a lot in my life whom I think I have failed. For all my life I have been a go-getter. If I put my mind into things, I get them. There is nothing so far I have not succeeded in, save for these two people.

These two people, like me, like everyone else, want to matter. They have big dreams, a lot to prove and a lot of expectations to fulfill. They have big hearts too. I feel like a failure to these two people because I think despite showing them how they matter, it really made no difference at all...

I have 14 days left, and right now, I don't think I have enough time to change all that has happened... but I want to tell you, shoti and sleepyhead, that you both will always matter to me... I will miss you a lot.